January is already over. The spirit of new year’s eve is still so fresh to me, actually even the memories of my high school graduation 3 years ago. I can not avoid to feel little worried of the thought that I will die soon, that my life is shorter than I imagine, that I will have wrinkles, that my skin will sag and my hair will turn white soon. Those signs of aging seem fast approaching. Is other feeling the same or is it just me being too paranoid?
Lately while I was stumbled upon how things are being played fast forward, how the tick of the clock rotates 5 times faster, how my little bro is growing up incredibly, how things around me changes, something hits me. At this age… have I already thought of what my main concerns are? I am not anymore the kiddie of the house, and I will never be 18 again after 100 days ( cause it's my birthday ). Are gaining good reputation, earning big income and gaining popularity my biggest concerns?
I’ll be hypocrite if I say that I do not have any concern in earning money to sustain my needs and feed my wants, and be respected and known. It’s normal to have such personal goals cause in this society it determines success. If you are miss rich and miss perfect, then you are successful. If you are Dr. Handsome or Atty. Famous, then you are successful and when you are successful you gain a lot of fans. Yeah, like a celebrity! Indeed, the life on this earth gives us pain in the b**t.
Let’s say, the day has come that I become respected Dr. Naj, handling my own hospitals and I earn huge $$$$$$$ monthly. It’s an awesome feeling, isn’t? Seriously, I do not want those to happen if….. in exchange of it is neglecting my main concern which is to be the ideal servant of God.
As a Muslim, I believe that the life in hereafter must be my main concern. That I must prepare for it by doing my obligations to God, and live by the way of our Prophet Mohammad. I wish I could be the ideal Muslim I can be. Whatever I will be busy at in my life like achieving my dreams, I hope that it will not be the reason for me to neglect my real duties as a Muslim.
I know it’s irrelevant but, can you suggest a good book to read? It will be better if it is not dystopian or sci fi.